7 weeks old....

It's been 7 weeks since I gave birth to the most amazing little person. To be honest, when I was pregnant I was so scared to be a mom...and some days wished that I didn't have go be. (Not saying I wanted a miscarriage. That was NOT the case) It was such an overwhelming thought...so much responsibility and so little sleep. What I didn't think about was the relationship between Raeilinn and I, or her and Tj for that matter. I guess it's something you can't recognize until you are a mom, and see it through your mommy eyes. The world seems to spin a different way now. And right when I think I am sooooo tired and cannot go another night without sleep, she'll sleep for hoursssss in between feedings. When I feel like a total wreck of a mom, with a messy house and undressed baby, Tj reminds me if what a great mom I am. She smiles lots now. And is even perfecting her baby talk. I must say its the most beautiful noise ever. I often lay in bed and play with her rather than clean my house like I should. But really...I SHOULD be enjoying every second with her...she changes every second, and I'm glad I realize that.

A busy week

I had my 4 week check up in Vegas. My mom also had an appointment so we rode down together. I traded in my car.....it still makes me a little sick knowing my payment went up....a lot, but it was a necessity. The back seat was so little, it was such a pain getting the carseat in and out. We had to have the front seats forward to where there was no leg room up front. The deal breaker though, was that the doors would randomly lock themselves and you couldn't unlock them! The lock/unlock button wouldn't unlock them, even if you turned the car off and back on, and you couldn't manually unlock them. The last week I had my car the back left door was locked, so I could only get her in and out on the right side. Then the front doors started doing it! I was so afraid of having my baby get locked in. At the dealership that day, it happened (thankfully the baby wasn't in there) I went to get in to grab the registration out, and I was 100% locked out. All the doors were stuck. Stupid ford. The manager had to break into the car through the window. Even though I'm going to have to work a little more to cover the difference in payments, I'm so glad I never have to worry about locking the baby in! Anyways- Raelinn met Dr. Martin for the 2nd time that day and I snapped a picture with my phone. Of course right when I took it she started to fuss, but at least we got one! I did hair for prom Saturday afternoon then we loaded up the dogs and baby and headed out to Barley Creek to have dinner with my parents (they were out there camping for Jacetons birthday) we were only there for a few hours (wish we could have stayed longer but they had to get in town for church the next day and I didn't pack enough diapers to stay over night) but it was so nice being out in the mountains. It's not the prettiest scenery camping in Nevada, but as long as you have no cell service, fresh air, and a campfire-life is good. We woke up Sunday morning and Raelinn gave us her first real smile. Actually her first second third fourth fifth and sixth....haha she would not stop!! I had her sitting up on my lap and she was smiling and talking to us! Cutest thing ever!! That afternoon we went out to the ranch and Raelinn met Grandpa Lynn ! Aunt Dixie made dinner for us and we had so much fun visiting and relaxing with them. Life is crazy busy-but amazing.

1 month old

It's amazing how fast time flies. She grows so much everyday. I'm behind in posting (what's new) she turned a month 1 week and 2 days ago, and just in that amount of time she has changed tremendously! Looking at these pictures and comparing them to her now just amazes me. That morning we woke up and set her in her swing and she was so alert! She watched her mobile on the swing and looked around for about an hour! My little tiny newborn is growing....and I can slowly feel her newborn-ness fade away. Bitter/sweet. .